Lifestyles of the Audacious

I promise you.  I really have been trying my best to clear some time out of my schedule to update you on what's going on in La Vida de Torie.  But me weekdays are filled with my job, my internship, and my classes.  And the weekends have been so hectic lately.  I can't remember the last weekend that I didn't have something that I had to do.  Truly crazy!!  Buttt Some fun things have been surfacing that I'd like to share with you real quick...

1. Tis the season for girl scout cookies!! I couldn't be more excited.  You are blessed to be reading the blog of a true Thin Mint QUEEN! =)

2.  You know the feeling when you meet someone and you start to become acquainted with them and it's all so unfamiliar and exciting??  And you get to know the big things about them.  Like what their values are, how they really feel about certain subjects, what they like and dislike, and how they feel about you?  Well there's also this feeling of what some people call "butterflies in the stomach" when you are about to see them and that cute nervous feeling surfaces.  I always thought it felt like you were at the top of a rollercoaster and you were hanging there for that brief second before it drops down.  I was thinking about it the other day.  And I realized that I got the similar feeling right before I jumped out of the plane over the summer.  I don't know any other way to explain it other than to tell you how wonderful it is to feel nervous, scared, excited and as if you were about to fall at the same time.. but being perfectly content with feeling all of those emotions.  I guess falling is falling, no matter what context you put it in, huh?

3. I have 4 more weeks of class.  I CANNOT WAIT!!  Don't get me wrong; I'm loving my classes and I'm loving the friendships I'm making.  But I miss ZuMBa! And I miss my trainer!! And I miss leaving work and not knowing what the rest of my night will be like.  Sometimes I just want to go home and watch a movie with my little man.  I'll finally get to spend more time with some special people.  In four weeks, I'll get to have more control over my weeknights! YAY

4.  My sister is the most beautiful girl in the world!!! She has been officially accepted at KSU.  I am so excited for her and cannot wait for her to begin a new chapter in her life.  She's finishing up her senior year, and actually, she'll be graduating at the end of this semester.  She will head off to Manhattan in the Fall.  One thing I'm really looking forward to:  My parents (who happen to be REALLY big Nebraska Cornhusker fans) and I heading to Manhattan to go tailgate and enjoy some football games.  (I can see my dad's blood boiling now, haha)





There's so much other stuff that's been going on.  And I promise I'll get caught up eventually.  I have big plans this weekend, and the weekend after that, annnnnd the weekend after that.  Sooo maybe I'll talk to you guys in December? =)

like most people, I've always tried my best to go through each situation that life has presented me the best way I know how.  I've tried to be as patient, as kind, and as respectful as I can be.  But like everyone else in the world, I have been known to fail here and there.  And unfortunately for me, I've had a history of being stubborn.  So often times, my failures didn't follow with apologies or efforts in repairing those moments of fault.

I had put some half assed effort into working on that weakness of mine, but didn't quite take it seriously until around the beginning of this past summer.  When I set out my goals to be better at this, I didn't just stick with the present and future; I chose to also try to repair some of the things that I was embarrassed about from the past.

During those efforts, I did something that I never thought my stubborn self would have done.  I tried contacting someone that I disrespected once.  The weird part is I have actually never met this person and he/she may not even remember what occasion I'm referring to.  Unfortunately..this person is INCREDIBLY hard to track down and get ahold of.  I tried my best and I did all that I could but somewhere down the line, I exhausted all of my resources to get ahold of him/her with no luck.

So in order to not let this discourage me from going forth in bettering myself, I'd like to say a little something on here:

I only know you from what I've heard about you.  I swore up and down that you were this crazy, stupid, idiot of a person without ever even being introduced.  We exchanged a few words once.  They weren't nice.  And given what you've been told about me.. I'm sure you weren't a big fan of me either.  But I want you to know that I'm sorry for filling my head with prejudgements of you.  It wasn't fair to you in any way.  I bet if we had met on different circumstances, we may have actually gotten along just fine.  So for what it's worth... I'm sorry for being rude, immature and disrespectful to you.  And I hope that you except my apology.

I've been known to ALWAYS try to see the best in people before I make judgements of who they are as a person.  My exboyfriend called me "niave", whereas I say I'm just "open minded".  Either way, I allowed my jealousy and territorial behavior to get the best of me and I made an assumption of someone.  It was incredibly rude, and since I can't seem to get in contact with you, I thought I'd apologize the only other way I knew how.

Thanks for reading,
TK

I have decided to take up the incredible art ot SEWING.  I know what everyone's thinking.  But trust me.. In a year or so, I should be a master at it! =) haha that's a joke!

But in all seriousness, I am wanting to learn how to sew.

Not because one time, a button fell off a pair of jeans, and my ex boyfriend was the one who sewed it back on (as if that weren't embarrassing enough) haha.

It's because I am really wanting to create a quilt.  My great, great grandma made one and a lot of my childhood memories include cuddling up with that thing.  It's so old and worn.  I love that.  I want to make my own quilt, so that when I get married and have kids, they can snuggle up to it during family movie night, or when they're not feeling well and want to lay around and watch tv all day.  Or when they're just cold and want something to keep them warm.  I think that would be such a great thing for them to find comfort in something that is made and delivered by someone in the family.  And as much as I'd love to keep handing down my great great grandma's, I would like to start handing down one of my own.

I have been doing a little bit of research and have narrowed my quilt learning to two types of quilts...

I did something just now that I should've done a long time ago.  I hate feeling guilty, and I love being honest with people...  Because that's the type of person I know I am; honest.

On a not so honest note... My mother and I finished catching up on REVENGE (my new favorite show).  The last episode talks a lot about guilt and holding grudges.  It reminded me of a grudge I had held onto for a really long time.  For someone I don't even know!  For something so incredibly stupid!! And I held onto a lot of guilt because of something I had said to this person I don't even know.  It drove me crazy for a long time.  But now,  I'm ready to let go of it all.. and apologize.  Because it's who I am, and it's what I stand for.

And now I'm extremely tired, so goodnight ya'll!